UNEMPLOYABLE 4 Spoon Fed Life

Perhaps there is specific division between people. It's black and white, but bear with me here, its only in a certain light. Spoon Feds and Improvisers. This is a separation that is very significant to me because I am a 'spoon fed' and have been my whole life. I was born into this category. I guess now I will have to add it to my various internet profiles. And as a true spoon fed idiot I am back at the old crossroads, been here many times before, and by some major head heating deduction, I can conclude that my life has been going in circles. I am back wondering but how to finish that nasty college BA. Damn. Oh these petty odes of the middle class. My selfish search for productivity and placement. And my endless search for no potential.

Have you ever looked through job postings in the creative sections of the newspapers and craigslist? After one day I am thinking of a NON-creative career. SInce I have been unemployed I have learned how to put a subfloor down in a sub-grade cement floor, change my oil/filter, and get my paypal account restored. Hopefully these useless new talents will serve me well in the future. Then again I don't want to get to optimistic or think that all the things that I do with my life are adding up to something relevant. Because I am far from relevant.

My life will become full of maintenance that will probably bury me beyond the point of ever contemplating anything beyond, career, fame, relevancy again. It is already mounting and I want to solve these problems myself.

FUTURE PROJECTS

give my van a tune-up,

fix drywall,

put in a wood floor,

put in steps,

put in a slate foyer and exitway,

sell all my possessions.

HAPPIEST MOMENTS OF MY LIFE

driving my 1972 pontiac granville convertible from AOL to my home in between vacations, coming home from trip to CA and then heading out on a year abroad,

telling people I was rich when I was rich,

getting caught fucking (everytime,)

making over 40,000 a year and never having to cook again (until now)

dropping in on a fast head high wave at montara beach with d lloyd

riding a giant wave at happy wanderers pointbreak in durban south africa

leaving portland for the last time